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How to Be Invisible
by Ann Sterzinger - 2/14/2003
One has written his first novel; the other has a new self-produced CD. The
boys of Ghostweed Press are gifted, funny, and completely hopeless at getting
noticed.
On
a recent Saturday at 4:55, novelist Matt Segur escaped his bulky coat and
claimed a small table at cozy Simon’s Tavern in Andersonville. He’d agreed to
meet Brook Long, a musician friend from his undergrad days at Northwestern, for
drinks at five, but he didn’t seem to expect Long to show up on time, because
he went ahead and ordered a Knob Creek bourbon, neat.
“This
doesn’t taste like Knob Creek,” he complained. “It doesn’t taste like bourbon.
It tastes like rubber cement. I hope I don’t go blind.” But he drank it
anyway.
Segur,
who’s 25, is the author of a subtle, funny book called Soft Power,
which he published himself in the fall. It begins
as a well-turned murder mystery, which would have been nice enough, but its
last third grows into a gentle, logical horror show that’s as intellectually
fertile as it is nightmarish and fits the nice tight plot to boot. What’s more,
Segur writes female characters who are in fact more vivid and plausible than
his men. Accomplished novelists twice his age still quail at writing
realistically across the gender line—Segur should be up to his big brown eyes
in advances.
But
Segur figured that shopping his manuscript around would be a waste of his time.
Though he likes many new movies, the big literary releases, to his mind, hew to
a lot of “unwritten rules” that he isn’t interested in following. “I can’t have
much hope that the New Yorker will like
my stories when I don’t like most of theirs,” he said. “I’m sure there are
books ‘out there’ that would interest me, but given limited time in which to
read, I’d rather pick up Journey to the End of the Night
than White Teeth. I don’t like the litfic manifesto, ‘You must write
only about ordinary people and events’ when used as a garrote. I don’t like the
shying away from big ideas.” He wishes the literary scene behaved more like
indie film, where working in a genre like mystery or science fiction doesn’t
get you automatically pegged as a housewife or a hairy-palmed case of arrested
adolescence.
And
anyway, as he worked on the manuscript, Segur was fomenting his own publication
scheme. At Northwestern he and Long had accrued five or six like-minded friends
with talent in the musical and literary arts, and the lot of them were plotting
to start something like a souped-up record label. They wanted to print their
own books, post their stories and short films on a Web site, and press their
own CDs.
But
that would require money, and as Segur wrapped up his degree in early ‘99, his
first obligation was to get a job. “I was better off than lots of people when I
graduated,” he said. “I had kind of a trade-school degree,” in math and
computer science. On a lark, he applied to help design games for Bungie, a
small Chicago video-game firm. They hired him part-time before he’d even
finished his course work; he went full-time that March and was put to work on a
story-heavy sci-fi game called Halo.
It
was a great job, tinkering with games on a private little team. A year later
Microsoft came sniffing, looking for games to launch the Xbox. Halo was only
half-finished, but on the strength of its demo the company swooped in, laid off
most of the customer support, marketing, and sales staff, and offered the tech
people exciting new lives in Redmond, Washington.
Though
Segur understands Bungie’s owners had hoped to get bought out—video games are
so expensive to launch that one failure could swamp a small company—he was
among the unhappiest prospective Microhires. While he grew up all over the
States, Segur felt he’d put down some roots in Chicago. “I didn’t want to move
away from my circle of friends,” he said. But Bungie needed Segur to finish the
game, and by mid-July they’d “kind of bribed” their mulish employee to go west
just long enough to seal the deal. Segur wouldn’t say how much money he got,
but it sufficed to seed the publishing imprint and record label now known as
Ghostweed. He came home with the bacon on December 23, 2001; shortly thereafter
he finished Soft Power and started
preparing the book as well as a CD by Long’s band Greentrials for release in
November ‘02.
While
Segur was in Washington, the Ghostweed group struggled, unable to get together
and hash things out. “You know, you have to spend 20 hours talking about
bullshit before you can even decide what to call yourselves. There were the
standard dynamics of people getting sick of each other, too,” Segur said.
Between that June and that October, “it went from me thinking that six people
were going to be involved in substantial capacity to not being sure if anybody
would.” Now, though one other member still writes stories for
www.ghostweed.com, Long and Segur are the last full-time coconspirators.
Long,
a charming blond from Evanston who claims he didn’t know the Northwestern
campus was in his town till he was about to apply there, came in and got
himself a beer halfway through Segur’s story. Long is currently the only member
of Greentrials, whose CD, Where Eaglets Dare,
is a delicious suite of hummable ghost tales. The songs all tell
short stories, most narrated in the second person—as though his characters
assume the feelings of the girls who reject them to be more interesting than
their own. Long’s not entirely happy with it, because his lyrical electric
guitar is fleshed out by a lot of pedal effects and keyboards rather than by
the happy racket of bandmates. He says he lacks the time (he’s in law school at
Northwestern now) and the wherewithal to get a band together: “It’s like there
are five steps you have to figure out to even get going, and I don’t know any
of them,” he says.
But
as they sat together jawing, Long and Segur exuded all the charisma and esprit
de corps of perfectly matched bandmates. We were discussing Audrey, the leading
lady in Soft Power. Stanley, the book’s
wry and reticent hero, is opaque, his thoughts barely perceptible behind his
wisecracks, till he accosts Audrey—a maintenance anger junkie with a spleen of
gold—on the el. Stanley’s just had a dream about a dead girl, and the girl
looks like Audrey, and he feels compelled to tell her despite the fact they’re
total strangers. Naturally she cusses him out, but as she warms to him in
subsequent run-ins, we see him through her thoughts and he finally comes to
life; the reader, like most of the characters in the book, troubles himself to
get to know Stanley at her insistence.
After
learning that Stanley has discovered a corpse in a box at the storage warehouse
where he works, Audrey charges forward to solve the case with amateur gusto and
an armload of conspiracy theories that make Stanley scratch his head and say,
“Pretty thin.” She’s persuaded that there must be some “Mr. Bad” responsible,
but the enemy is in fact neither human nor even sentient, at least not in the
way we understand sentience.
“Audrey’s
‘tragic flaw,’ in the eighth-grade Greek-lit-appreciation sense, is a belief in
justice,” Segur explained. “It’s clear her pursuit of the mystery, such as it
is, stems in part from a belief that when something bad happens it’s the
responsibility of every witness to do his or her best to hold someone
accountable. Her attitude contrasts with the complacency of some of those
around her, and that lack of complacency is held up as a virtue. But it’s also
her undoing.”
I
asked Segur how it is that he writes so well about the opposite sex.
“Maybe
I’m just afraid I’ll get busted about that stuff,” Segur said. “And Stanley’s
not all that different from me, so I’m not as worried about making a mistake.
So maybe I’m less careful...”
“Or
maybe you’re more careful so people
won’t know what you’re thinking!” said Long, and they both laughed.
“My
sister shows up a little bit there,” Segur continued.
“The two biggest sources of female characters for
me are all people I know or people I’d like to know, because I’d like to date
them, uh, which sounds weird next to my sister I guess...”
“Which
wouldn’t sound so weird if she weren’t so much like your mom!” Long finished,
getting up to pee.
After
Long disappeared down the bar’s dank back hall, Segur said, “There’s a little
bit of Brook, too, but I had to wait for him to leave to tell you that.”
In
feel and tone, Long’s CD matches the sweet-natured terror of the book. He and
Segur swear they didn’t intend their first releases to form a companion set;
none of the songs’ story lines echo Soft Power’s.
But there isn’t a recording in my collection that goes as nice with
Segur’s words as Where Eaglets Dare.
Clearly the two have swapped their share of books and mix tapes.
Long’s
approach to songwriting has parallels to Segur’s approach to fiction. He
attack’s songcraft’s formulaic nature head-on: “In the current vogue, we’re all
above storytelling as mechanics, as craft,” he said. He tries to address his
influences blatantly—he claims he once wrote a song by consciously rearranging
the elements of a Stevie Wonder song. “Songcraft is something that’s going to
sneak up on you subconsciously anyway, and you’ll write something more
formulaic than formulaic,” he said. “Every song you’ve ever heard has been
working on you without your admitting it, and you’ll have your bare ass hanging
out there to the world and everybody will see all your influences. ‘Oooh, I’m
writing straight from the heart—it’s all coming out of here!’—and you’ll sound
like the fucking Indigo Girls.”
Both
the musician and the novelist are still waiting for someone to take substantive
notice of their work. Things are painfully quiet on the review front: they sent
Soft Power to a book reviewer in
Boulder, Colorado, where Segur went to junior high and high school; he heard
nothing, and later found the critic had quit considering small press releases,
claiming they were too poorly copyedited. Long has yet to play a show in
support of Eaglets. And even if
either product did get a review or two, most people wouldn’t be able to find
them: both the book and the CD are available through www.ghostweed.com and on
Amazon.com, but neither has any sort of national retail distribution. (Locally
you can find the book at Quimby’s, Chicago Comics, the Seminary Co-op
Bookstore, and Comix Revolution in Evanston and the CD at Quimby’s, Reckless
Records, and Dr. Wax.)
Segur
said Long is, “supposed to be devoting his free time to putting together live
arrangements of the stuff on Eaglets and
a band to perform them.” For his part, he’s already banged out his
as-yet-untitled second novel. “It’s about a student in junior high school who
founds a poetry club / suicide cult,” he said. Given the neglect Soft
Power has suffered, he’s decided to hold
his nose and shop sample chapters around to literary agents. So far he’s gotten
a couple dozen impersonal rejection slips—but recently two agents, responding
within a week of one another, have asked to see more of his work.
“I’d
be perfectly comfortable with self-publishing, except that it leads to nobody
paying attention to you,” Segur said. “I don’t know what you have to do if you
want people to read things.”
(reprinted with permission from the
Chicago Reader)
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